Team Body Positiveness

I posted a picture of my finished knit displayed on a mannequin to the Web and after someone commented on how great it turned out the person added “I wish I had the courage to wear something like that…”

I don’t know the woman personally nor do I know her full story behind the comment, but it lead me to think a little of my own journey on gaining courage to wear certain items.  I could write a long list of things I wish were a little different about myself, but I’m choosing to head in a different direction.

I’m joining team Body Positivity.  My wish is for women and men (and myself!) to feel good about themselves as they are in this moment. I am not always in that space, but I try to pull back a little on pointing out my “problem areas”.  I’m learning to celebrate beauty and confidence in myself and others.

Part of what body positiveness means to me is being loving and accepting of your body as it is and this means wearing those things to which you are drawn.  I’m not a fan of those strict fashion rules that say you have to minimize a large bust, or draw attention away from the hips, or avoid wearing stripes over a certain size. Listen, if you like it and if your are comfortable in it, wear it, my friends. If you aren’t comfortable, then make the changes you want or need to make and/or find the acceptance you need to get there, but in the meantime love yourself and see value in yourself as is.

So to that woman I offer encouragement for her to wear those things to which she is drawn.

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Pattern: Dress #9 in Vogue Knitting Fall 2007, Size 40″ Bust

Yarn: Cascade 220 Heathers in Japanese Maple

On Perfection

“Artists who seek perfection in everything are those who cannot attain it in anything.”

Eugene Delacroix

One can find the word ‘perfect’ in the dictionary, but is there anything that can be truly be defined as without defect or flaw?

In the spirit of “Keepin’ it 100”, perfection is the very reason on why I delay posting my makes. Is my item pefectly finished? How about does it fit perfectly? I assess myself in the mirror to make sure every hair is in it’s place and the folds of the garmet fall where they should. I keep waiting around for that perfect day to take photos outside in just the perfect location. Or if it’s too cold, finding the right corner of the house that I can use as a perfect back drop. Is my photo editing as close to perfect as possible? Will I have the perfect words to convey my journey through this project?

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None of the aforementioned worked out to my standards of perfection on this project. It rarely ever does, but I had to stop and ask myself if it really was that big of a deal.

I’m learning, especially with sewing, that these little imperfections are opportunities to learn and grow in the craft. I cannot let the lack of perfection in an item keep me from finishing or sharing. No matter what, there will be some critical eye that will find something wrong. The goal is to aim for a healthier version of perfectionism. One that includes high standards, growth, and dicipline without all of the anxiety, frustration, and unfinished business. This idea of healthy, yet realistic version should motivate us just enough to continue on the path of improvement and not hold us back in any way. Do the best you can with what you have! I’m pretty sure there is meme floating around with those sentiments.

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I used McCalls pattern 6651 and made View C in a size 16. This top was already oversized so I did not do the usual FBA. I shortened the sleeve cap height to ease in the sleeve without crazy puckering. It’s loose and comfortable. The fabric is from the stash in an unknown fiber. It was in the giveaway bin when I thought I could give it one last chance. I dig it! No bright colors this time, but I also love prints.

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Seasonal Musings

When winter comes around, the cold solidifies just how much more I enjoy warmer temperatures, but I’m not going to complain because there are things I do enjoy about this season. I’ve often considered taking inspiration from each season and translating it into a mini collection. To finally make that a reality, I dug into the bead stash to fashion a simple earring set using superduos.

I didn’t know what to do with these super duo beads so I started with some inspiration in Learn to Use 2 Hole Beads. I thought about the things that I loved (and disliked) about each season. Not digging too deep, I used elements that were quite literally represented in each season: the winter snow, the spring flowers, the summer sun, and fall leaves.

Winter Reflections: SNOWFLAKE

homemade hot chocolate and marshmallows, soup, heated seats, learning to snowboard in Vermont, mittens, cozy handknit sweaters, sewing coats (totally gonna be my new thing)

Spring Reflections: CLUSTERS OF WISTERIA

flowers, dreams of traveling to see the cherry blossoms in DC or Japan, planting in the garden, staying inside for creative rainy days, pollen on everything

Summer Reflections: SUNFLOWER

sundresses and sandals, cycling, embracing shorts, ice cream shops, longer days, back in the day remembrances of sitting on the front steps with my mini boom box

Autum/Fall Reflections: LEAVES OF COLOR

fall colors, Halloween costumes, seasonal allergies *eye roll*, eggnog, roasted root vegetables, apple picking, holiday baking, cornbread stuffing, coquito!

I’m pretty sure I’ll revist this collection concept using another medium. It’s a really simple way to spark a few ideas when you are having a creative block.

Wakanda Forever!

With any movie or tv show I immediately start sizing up the costuming and jewelry looking for creative inspiration for my next Geek Craft. For this one, I took a trip all the way to Wakanda, where the internet speeds are insane and everybody has wearable tech.

There were quite a few items to admire and inspire in this film. In particular was the purple T’Challa vest, Nakia’s green leather dress, and Shuri’s white mesh dress, mesh tee, and sheer lab looks. All of the shapes, prints, and colors on the screen were a feast to my eyes! Perhaps sometime later I’ll have the opportunity to sew an inspired look however, this time I took to the bead stash to recreate my version of T’Challa’s suit neckline.

Materials used: nylon, glass, and of course, pure vibranium.

Superheros are cool however, I really live for the supervillans, so I do see a Killmonger version in my near future to complete the collection. The villians are much more interesting and complex to me. Not that I love evil and destruction, but there is a lot of story to tell behind why they do the evil things they do. How about a movie or two on those guys, I’m just sayin’!

“We must find a way to look after one another as if we were one single tribe.”

-T’Challa

Don’t You Dare Say That “R” Word

It’s about that time where folks have lost their wits about themselves because other people actually are making attempts to change their lives on January 1st. Now I’m not quite a part of the “New Year, New Me” camp, but if I see you wanting some change for your life, then go ahead on and work it out. Change is hard, so cut people some slack!

*off soapbox*

What I’ve been doing for myself for the past several years has been to toss aside that dirty little “R” word and set a plan for intentional living. These are the base intentions for my life that continuously encourage me to strive for happiness, mindfulness, a healthy lifestyle, minimum financial burden, to keep walking a spiritual path, continuous education (formal or informal), and always learning something about myself, my loved ones, and my world. Out of that plan, it has spawned a “Word of the Year”, which is CONNECTION for 2019.

To translate that idea to my creative projects, means I intend to put more of my heart and focus into my creative passions. I’ve forced myself to use a lot of materials and fibers I’ve no longer loved out of obligation. I’ve tossed aside projects that didn’t turn out as “perfect” as expected. I’ve held out on a few projects and techniques because I thought it might be too crazy or beyond the norm. I’ve also created things for myself that didn’t speak loud enough for my personality at times. I realize that I might not feel a warm and fuzzy about every single thing I create, but it has to start out on the right track: Digging deeper for inspiration and connection to the materials and/or project at hand.

I’m setting the intention to take a huge step outside of my comfort zone this year to practice, keep, share, create, and wear the things that are meaningful and inspiring to me.

And that ultimately leads me to the epic knitting project I’m taking on. I let a friend “convince” me into joining her in knitting the Indian Nights Blanket.

Now I know I JUST wrote about connection, inspiration, and intention, but this project relates.

  1. It’s a loose KAL with a friend so she will listen and understand to my cries of weaving in all of those tails.
  2. I’ve always wanted to knit a blanket. Just one. In high school, I tried to crochet one for my twin bed…in only single crochet. I started another one so many years ago from inexpensive yarn I ordered online. I hated the colors when it showed up, but I still tried to make it work. It didn’t. And I would rather knit it in pieces than one whole piece so I can switch up projects.
  3. I need more colorwork in my life! I claim to love colors and prints so much, but a lot of the things I chose to knit use only one or two colors. I think this blanket blows that out of the water.

I even started my first square before 2018 came to a close!

Happy New Year, peeps!

Coming to Terms with my Stash(es)

Collector or a completionist?

2015 stash of 6 bins now reduced to 4 in 2018.

So I finally got around to reading the popular knit lit “A Stash of One’s Own”. I read it and I took notes. Surely, there was some wisdom in here that would help me come to terms with my own yarn stash and beyond. No doubt, there was a ton of advice that made me start to think about it a different way, but full acceptance is a ways off. I did take a large step back because most of the contributors are professionals in the knitting industry. In that respect, having a stash is justified. You need it for your job or your life’s work. Just sitting, buried under a pile of yarn just for the fun of it sounds a bit crazy and excessive. See? I’m still on Acceptance Level 0.5.

Stephanie Pearl McPhee pointed out that a lot of yarn is there just to dream of possibilities. And there are some yarns I look at and think of all of the wonderful things it could be and then I put it right on back in the stash. It’s just too beautiful to knit with right now. It needs THE perfect project.

But then I read from Amy Hezbog “I don’t want to shackle tomorrow’s creativity to the place I am in today.” Yes. YES! This old yarn, get it out of here! I want through the stash once pulling out things that I thought I might have creatively grown out of. That’s when the guilt starts to set in. The feelings of obligation, responsibility, and commitment to my purchase. Why?

The anxiety surrounding the stash that Sue Shankle mentioned is a very real thing for me and I agree that it defeats the purpose of feeling good. The stash should be inspiring. A lot of times, a new yarn purchases weirdly triggers me to revisit the stash and Like Ann Maltz I like supporting other’s creative practices and making a connection to what they make. I bring home new yarn and then I dip back into the stash to give some love to one the old homies that have been rollin’ with me for a while.

So up to this point I’ve only talked about yarn, but there are beads, fabric, and acquisitions for all of the other activities in which I dabble contained in the stash as well. Substitute the word YARN for any of those and the story is the same.

I’m on my way to a place of being thoughtful and purposeful with my stash collecting in the advice of Susan B. Anderson.

Acceptance Level 7. I’m almost there. Level 10 coming soon.

Matched…and Moving On

I didn’t really think I would be a shawl person. I would constantly see new knitting patterns pop up on Ravelry and I would think to myself “Really, how many shawls does one person need?” Current answer is at least two because I’m ready to knit another. The scarf is nice, but a shawl? Man, those things are quite versatile. Besides, the drama of tossing one long end over your shoulder in a dramatic fashion is just fabulous!

This Match and Move started out as a knit-a-long with a friend and ended up in frustrations on just wanting to finish the darn thing. After the first few sections I was really worried that my shawl was coming up on the side of being too small so I added a few more sections. Knitting across on 200 something stitches takes F.O.R.E.V.E.R. Sometimes I live for a mindless knit to which I can binge watch some Netflix, but I got a little bored with garter stitch once I got to the second section. Too many times I entered mindless knit mode dropped a few stitches, missed a decrease, or forgot what row I was on and had to rip back to fix the mistakes. I’m going to be truthful and say that I had to leave a few in there or I would still be knitting this thing.

I started in early September and planned to finish at the end of that month. The added sections pushed the finish date to end of October then to the end of November when I at last started to weave in all of those color changing tails. The finished shawl is at least 10 inches longer than the original pattern. I used workhorse Knitpicks Stroll yarn in Ash and Pickle Juice.

This project made me aware of how often I rush through projects just to finish. Isn’t the point of doing all of this creative work to enjoy the process? I need to keep reminding myself that creative work isn’t only about the finished project. Along the way, I did take some time out to admire the color changes and the line formed by decreases to create the asymmetrical triangle shape. It’s a basic shawl, but with a little “wow”.

World of Swatches

“Anyone who wishes to create beautiful clothes- or wear them- owes it to him or herself to learn as much as he or she can about the world of fabric.”

— Tim Gunn in The Mood Guide to Fabric and Fashion

My favorite fabric guide in my creative library is the “All about Wool/Cotton/Silk” series. Way back in the late 1990s I saw the offer for these books in the back of a sewing magazine. That’s how far back my interest in sewing goes. I didn’t much have the time, money, or space to really dig into the craft, but I collected a few educational books on the subject. Each book not only contains a wealth of information on what to expect of a particular fabric but a swatch of each type. That was the major selling point. When trying to find the right fabric for your projects, it helps to able to feel weight and texture of what you will be working with. Will it drape to your liking? Does it have a shine to it? How sheer? Is it practical for your specific event or activity?

These guides are helpful when I’m trying to take a step beyond what’s on a pattern envelope or if I’m trying to design something of my own. I wish I could say these resources help me get it right on the first try all the time.

I also attended a college course a few years which required the students to gather fabrics to create a swatchbook of our own. While I didn’t get all that was expected from the class, I managed to learn something. Great garments start with a great knowledge of great fabrics. Does great always mean expensive? No. It’s more or less having an understanding of how a particular fabric will suit your needs. Even with the abundance of available books and websites on textiles, the best way to learn is to experiment. I’m telling myself to no longer be afraid to cut into fabrics no matter how exquisite.

Cape in Fall Landscape…Because Poncho Doesn’t Rhyme

Fall is here whether you like it or not. I only dread the season because it reminds me that winter is coming. Otherwise, it contains a lot of my favorite things: being able to wear my handmade sweaters and scarves, beautiful earthy colors, eggnog, and of course, Carbsgiving. Cornbread stuffing is life!

Fall also means the challenge of finding appropriate outdoor wear. Temperature fluctuations in my area make it feel warm one day and almost too cold the very next day so I would like to build into my wardrobe something that can cover me for these seasonal changes.

I’m thinking I could wear this solo when the temperatures rise or layer this over another non-outerwear jacket and still be comfortably warm on a cooler day. I chose a blizzard fleece and pre-made bias tape from Joann fabrics. For the belt, I used faux suede. Fleece was too bulky for the holes and it didn’t hang well.

In my experience, working with plaids can be super wasteful due to print matching. I found myself in this weird space between wanting to be a perfectionist and wanting to be economical. I cut out a size 16-18 which was a little too large to utilize the suggested cutting layout. Instead of buying another yard of fleece to get it just right on all points and leave me with more fabric waste, I took a risk and was able to match up the horizontal lines on everything except one shoulder. Lesson learned on using a walking foot for edge binding for next time.

Back to Basics

I’m quick to admit that I’m bored with my wardrobe. I head out shopping to find new pieces that excite me, but a lot of what is on the racks within my budget bores me to tears. So I get nothing. Instead I turn to the craft stores and magazines to stock up on sewing patterns. There is no shortage of trendy, bold looks that catch my eye. I look for the challenge of sewing something complicated to spice up my closet, but on the real I just don’t always have time to sew, Rather I should say, MAKE time to sew, but that’s a topic for another time.

I took a step back from my closet and asked myself: What do you really want to wear? What do you really like? And most importantly, What do you NEED? What is missing?

The answer this time was Work Basics or plain, neutral colored tops to wear under jackets or with trousers for work. I find them a bit boring, but they are sometimes a necessity to let other pieces take the stage. It’s the perfect backdrop that won’t compete with a statement necklace or pattern you want to shine.

I chose Simplicity 2892 in crepe back satin. I cut a size 14 then did a full bust adjustment (FBA) which added darts that I did not go through the trouble of removing. I added width to the back piece, lowered the armholes and scooped out an additional 1/4″ on the front. I pinched out a bit of back length at the shoulders and used only the outer sleeve piece. Hem treatment was a one fold narrow hem, which I see will have to be modified to enclose the fraying edges.  I think I will change it to a rolled hem.